So, Belle is tired and stressed out, but that's no excuse for my lack of journal update.
I had more nightmares/hallucinations today, but I have an energy shot so I'm fine now.
Ish.
If you've been following my work(wishful thinking) you've probably noticed the recurring Goddess theme lately, as well as the Tulip/Lotus thing going on.(Say 'Tulip petals, Lotus petals' three times fast)
The three of those really mean a lot to me. Tulips are my favorite kind of flower. They're the perfect embodiment of virgin beauty and curves. I love curves. It's one of my favorite thing about the human body. Curves are the essence fo perfection. The universe is round, the planets are round, etc. It's wonderful.
Lotuses (there is no other plural for that word. Loti do not exist) are usually in reference to the Odyssey( I hate Odysseus) and the memory-hindering properties of said mythical lotuses. I also love the fact that the same flower if a symbol of deep divinity in the Hindu religion/culture. I love it.
My life has been kind of diagonally skewed lately, but I'm alive and I suppose that's what matters. I like to think that I'm still good at what I do, and that I haven't completely lost my ability to be the one and only. My self image has drastically improved, which is great. However, my coping skills and activity has drastically decreased, which is odd and depressing. See that? Bad coping skills.
Apathy is the cloth with which I gird my nakedness and hide my fury from the world. <---bad poetry.
I need a real camera!
Tengo sexual feelings for ----, which is kind of awkward, but that's okay because I'm always awkward. I'm also developing an attraction toward ----. Not obnoxious ----, but the one with the pretty eyes.
Yep. Anonymous. Five bucks says this is obvious.
Somehow though people don't know which works are about them. Saddening but convenient.
P.S: Can a hoe get published? Who does a bitch have to sleep with to get some money 'round here?

I'll write you a poem for two dollars! Mother's Day gift? Come on!